You are a Christian now, you're part of the tribe, and you should keep working on your faith so you can develop your own voice and be well healed.
But this is your life, you don't need to throw the baby out with the bath water. Be you.
Forget about appeasing everyone and do it your way, Work through it, you don't need to have all the answers. Reaffirm what you do believe by writing it down.
Be like Jesus and Rick Lean and have your own take, don't be scared to think differently.
Be kind, that's all.